Chandeliers and Pipe Dreams

I am desperate for more to do at work and i can’t figure out why I didn’t get the one thing I asked my previous manager for, more tasks. A way to make it worthwhile to him to have me at the restaurant, being paid. I’m bored out of my mind, so bored I’m writing at work. There’s nobody to seat at a table, there are three managers and nothing to do.

I’m thankful for both of my jobs, I’ve learned so much from working as a host at the front door of an extremely popular supper club and jazz bar. I have become more organized and thoughtful about planning the evening. I’m in charge of a lot of people’s experience: both guests’ and my coworkers’ nights are determined by how well I do my part. I love that feeling of being necessary to the overall flow of the night. I’ve found something I’m good at and want to continue furthering my career in this path for now. I want to be a server and then a manager in a restaurant. I also still want to work in a restaurant marketing/ public relations function. I’m hopeful that I will find a job where I fit in with the team like I do at my current two jobs, with management that is similar to my newer job.

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unenthusiastic​ right now

Someone give me a push

I have a couple of jobs on the table right now, none of which I’m ecstatic about, but all of which would present me with different opportunities. Two would mainly be helping friends in need of pastry cooks, and the other would be good money while I continue the journey to becoming a restaurant marketing person: a professional who doesn’t have to wear a uniform or non-slips. not that I loathe my uniform or non-slip shoes, but I’m ready for something different, although I have one business opportunity in mind that would combine my favorite people and my favorite place. However, I’m not sold on that idea myself, nor would anyone else involved be interested if I’m not ready to pitch the idea. I’m most interested in being a front of house restaurant employee right now because that would enable me to go to classes and still make more money than I do on unemployment. In addition, I wouldn’t be nearly as bored as I frequently complain that I am.

push harder, please

I have a laundry list of things I wanted to do these past three months and that I never managed to get my ass in gear to do, even though I had no excuses whatsoever. I hate that about myself. I need outside motivation/impetus to get shit done, and I guess that being unemployed is just manifesting my laziest qualities. I’m not even sure why I haven’t done any of the things I’d been so excited about before Aziza closed. It makes little to no sense not to do things you were excited about. I used to be super excited to go to karaoke and then almost skive off at the last minute. Mostly, I’m enamored enough with karaoke that I usually go when I can, when I have the energy.

 

Dogs Surround Me

All the Dogs!

I think I’m only writing for practice. Practicing my HTML skills. I’m still pretty far behind the curve on this one, but it’s not that difficult, just memorizing what to use, when/why, and how: same as every other thing in life. Apparently learning to code is important for everyone, now that our world runs on the internet, computers and smart devices (phones, tablets, etc.).

When I did my internship with KeyReads, they gave me a few PowerPoint slides on SEO and HTML but I fell off using them because I finished my internship and ultimately dropped out of Graduate School, which was a mistake, to go into cooking, which wasn’t a mistake. I don’t know what my life would have been like if I stayed in my master’s program and maybe tried to cook part-time. It got me to where I am today, regardless. I have good friends and live in a place I love because I attended 1/2 of the program to which I applied.

P.S. are you still wondering why I mentioned dogs?

I only mentioned the dogs because I really am surrounded by dogs. My mom’s business is called P.E.T. Your Dog. She does pet sits, CPR/first aid training, and doggie day care, as well as overnight boarding. So, there are always dogs at her house, which my mom’s cat isn’t too happy about. Now that my mom’s business is well established, she can be more selective when it comes to taking clients. Sometimes the cat can hang out with the dogs, not too often, but it happens occasionally.

Ultimately the fact is

If you read my comments on this blog, you see her perennially saying she’s proud of me. I’m proud of her too.

Great Food Quotations

Cooking is at once one of the simplest and most gratifying of the arts, but to cook well one must love and respect food.
–Craig Claiborne

There is no love sincerer than the love of food.
–George Bernard Shaw, Irish playwright (1856-1950)

If you are ever at a loss to support a flagging conversation, introduce the subject of eating.
–Leigh Hunt

Whose bread I eat: his song I sing.
–German Proverb

And finally, my beloved Julia Child said:
People who love to eat are always the best people.